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Only 10 Left to Go


So Valentines Day was really fun! Will and I went to Curly’s (this burger and fries place) for lunch and it was really good! I then got my haircut that afternoon by Will’s sister-in-law, Jodi’s, beautician named Janet Smith. She’s awesome! We were going to do a cut just above my shoulders but then decided to donate it and I had to have 8 inches in order to do that! I thought “why not?” I am going to lose all of it soon anyway so why not donate it to someone who can use it! So now I have a cute bob that I am getting used to! It’s as short as I have ever had it but I think it’s growing on me! You can see pics in my photo gallery. Jan also painted my fingernails, toenails, and gave me a foot massage. Did I mention she’s awesome? 🙂

That evening we had some delicious chicken and noodles that Terry Wagner (a lady who works with my dad) made! They were really good!! I got a dress, sweater, and coffee mug plus some really nice cards from mom, dad, and sister! Will and I then finished off the day watching “Wedding Crashers!” That has always been one of my favorite movies. Oh, and I didn’t mention that he got me a cute shirt and some hand lotion for V-day too…he’s the best! I am a lucky girl to be blessed with such wonderful family and an awesome boyfriend too!

Yesterday was a day that I have been dreading for the past two weeks. I had my second round of chemotherapy. 😦 Nanny, Mom, and Dad took me and my roommate Caitlin dropped by during the end of my treatment. I had blood drawn first, then saw the PA, and then headed up to the 4th floor for chemo. However, we had a bit of a hold-up in the doctor’s office because my neutrophil count was only 100 when the normal range is 1000-1500.Basically, this means that I am very susceptible to infectious diseases. There is a shot you can get called Neulasta which increases your white blood cell count before chemotherapy. However, my white blood cell count wasn’t too concerning and there have been studies done that show the Neulasta shot can cause a 20% chance of getting pneumonitis (lung damage) later on. The study showed that progessing on with chemo and not giving the Neulasta shot regardless of the person’s blood count only gave the person a 3% chance of getting pneumonitis. Therefore, my doctor is very aggressive and wants to continue on with treatment and without a Neulasta shot for the time being. I am just going to have to live in a bubble for awhile.

Last night was pretty rough. I took some nausea medication on the way home from the hospital but still felt a little nauseous last night. I ate another awesome meal which was provided by a family friend and then could hardly wait to take my nausea medication and go to bed. I was in bed by 8:30 which is unheard of for me but I decided I would rather be alseep than uncomfortable all night.

I woke up this morning not feeling too bad. I ate some breakfast and then decided to sit and write some thank-you notes. I don’t mean to toot my own horn but I got about 12 thank-you notes written today. I also watched “The Blind Side” with Nanny, took a shower for the first time in 2 weeks, and fixed my hair. Don’t worry, I have been washing my hair in the sink and bathing daily but it just felt so good to be able to shower on my own, even if it did take every ounce of energy I had.

Although I felt alright today, I am not going to get my hopes up too much. This is about how I felt last time on the day after chemo. It usually hits me pretty hard the third and fourth day. I am going to keep praying that it stays like this though. I ask that you pray for my strength and energy as well. I believe so strongly in the power of prayer. I am one lucky girl to have so many people out there praying for me also!

When I woke up today and read my “Jesus Calling” book, the first few lines read “Thank Me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still. Do not spoil these quiet hours by wishing them away, waiting impatiently to be active again. Some of the greatest works in My kingdom have been done from sick beds and prison cells.” So often do I wish away the hours when I don’t feel good, while God is longing for me to spend that time with Him. I have tried to make it a goal to spend more time with Him daily. He really does desire this from each one of us. Who knew that he would use something such as this to draw me closer to Him? I still believe that He has big plans for my life. The countdown is on…only 10 more chemotherapy sessions to go!

God Answers Prayers


As many of you know, I am about 14 weeks short of being a physical therapy school graduate. When all of this started, I was still very determined to finish school and graduate in May. Well God obviously had other plans for me right now. With being pretty sick last week after my chemotherapy, there was just no way I could continue on with my clinical rotation every day.

When we saw Dr. Armor last week before my chemo, he had written a letter to Langston saying that if I was going to complete my clinicals this semester I had to be in an outpatient setting. Well the school curriculum says that you have to do one acute care rotation, one neuro rehab rotation, one outpatient rotation, and one rotation in a rural setting. As of right now, I have completed a neuro rehab, an outpatient, and a rural rotation. Therefore, all I have left is an acute care rotation and this could not be changed to outpatient.

After many discussions with the Dean of my school, we came to the conclusion that it would be best for her to give me an incomplete for the semester, let me walk with my class in May, and then continue my last clinical when this is all over (probably September). My goal is to still finish everything by the end of this year. I have looked forward to 2012 for so long due to accomplishing this goal of mine and I still want to make that happen.

Today has been my best day yet as far as feeling good goes. I slept in a little bit, didn’t take any medications, and didn’t even take a nap this afternoon. I can’t say that I feel 100% because I have come to the realization that that is probably not going to happen until these 6 months are over. However, when I feel good enough to do more than lay around all day, it is a good day! 🙂

We went down to my apartment in OKC this afternoon and moved my stuff back home. This made me very sad because I had a wonderful roommate who is a dear sorority sister of mine. I felt so bad to leave her there because we had such a good time living together! It is also kind of hard to move back home for the second time at my age. However, I can’t complain because I have wonderful parents and I couldn’t do it without them right now.

Nanny has been keeping me busy here at home. She is very good at taking my vital signs every morning, afternoon, and evening. We also try to take a walk every day. She is making me eat something every two hours which sometimes is difficult when you don’t feel good. However, she has fixed the best meals for me! I love having her here and may not let her go home!

My cousins are coming this weekend and I am so excited! I am not sure what we are going to do but I am sure it will be a good time no matter what. We have been so close ever since we were little and when they found out about what was going on with me, they couldn’t wait to get down here. I love them all so much!

God is still good and deserves all the glory! I prayed this morning that I could just have one full day of feeling alright and He gave me just that. I already feel like I have grown closer to Him. My mom and I are doing a Beth Moore bible study that we started Monday night and I know He has big things in store for me. I can’t wait to share them with all of you! Keep on praying…He is listening!!