I apologize for waiting so long to write another post. Our internet has been down at my parent’s house for the past week and I haven’t been able to write. Thanks to Will’s parents for letting me use their internet tonight to write this post! A lot has happened since my last post and I wanted to keep you all updated.
I went to see my family doctor a couple of weeks ago and he answered a lot of the questions I have. One of them was if I could get off a couple of the medications he had put me on in the beginning and he said yes, which was great because that lessened the number of pills I have to take each day. Another question I had was if I should continue to take the antibiotics I have been taking for the past 6 months to help keep me from getting sick during my clinical rotation and he said yes that would be a great idea! I am now down to taking only 4-5 medications a day and that is awesome for me! I can’t wait until I can get back to taking none! My doctor also told me that I could start exercising a little each day and so I have started walking, doing crunches, and trying to tone my arms and legs.
My cousin, Taylor, came to see me last week for a few days and we had a lot of fun! Stillwater offers sales in town at most of the local businesses one weekend during the summer and she happened to be here at just the right time! We spent most of the day Thursday shopping and got a lot of really great deals! 🙂 However, my mind tends to think that I can do a lot more than my body allows me to right now! Needless to say, I was worn out after a full day of shopping and we didn’t do a whole lot besides relax and watch the British Open on Friday.
On Saturday, my mom, sister, Taylor, and I headed to Kansas City for the day to meet my Aunt Robin, Courtney, and Chandler. We started with a tour of Courtney and Jeff Shore’s house which was very cute! Definitely made me consider living in a similar neighborhood in Kansas City someday. We then headed to Town Center to shop. The day ended with dinner at North where we met my Aunt Leslie! We had such a fun girl’s day out to celebrate our mother’s 50th birthday one last time!
Tuesday, my friend Emily and I decided to head to Tulsa for the day to have lunch and shop a little! (Promise I haven’t spent that much money with all my shopping endeavors recently) 🙂 Along with getting lost a few times in Tulsa, we also met up with my “little” (Emily Orza) at the mall! It was such a fun day and once again I was worn out! I still have to remember that my body isn’t used to doing so much and that it is going to take awhile to get my energy back.
Aside from all these fun shopping trips I have been on lately, I have also read a book, worked on a scrapbook of the past 6 months, and finished my Beth Moore bible study. Oh, and talked to Nanny every day of course 🙂 I stole the title of this blog post from my Beth Moore bible study which was called “Living Beyond Yourself.” I learned so much from that study about God, myself, and His plan for my life. I am already looking into another Beth Moore bible study to begin next. The last lesson talked about how we should have God on our mind all day! We should be praising Him for His greatness alone and seeking Him through His word and prayer. Isaiah 26:3 says “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee.” He deserves so much praise for all He has done for me! I will be forever grateful!
I finished a great book yesterday that also pertained to “living beyond yourself.” It talked about how to achieve happiness, even when you have every reason to be miserable. It was written by Scott Hamilton, the Olympic Gold Medal Figure Skater who had cancer twice in his life. I highlighted a lot of the book so that I could share my favorite parts with you. He quoted actress Dorothy Bernard saying “Courage is fear that has said it’s prayers!” I loved this quote! That is so true. God gives us courage as soon as we ask for it! He also talked about the things that we think are a coincidence in our lives are actually “God-scheduled opportunities.” That is so true as well. I believe that God knew way before I was born that I was going to have cancer. He also knew that He was going to see me through it and make me a better person because of it.
I have always been a firm believer that we determine each day whether we are going to be happy or not. Mr. Hamilton quoted figure skater Eric Heiden in his book saying “It’s not the events in our life that define our character, but how we deal with them.” I feel like it is so easy to just want to give up and feel sorry for yourself when you are facing challenges in your life. However, if you deal with them head on and seek God, you will be better because of it. Mr. Hamilton talks about how cancer can be a “gift.” I know it sounds odd but it is so true. I would never wish it upon anyone but I am so thankful that God gave me this challenge so that I could draw closer to Him and the people I love. I will share more from the book during my next post because I don’t want this one to get too long. 🙂
This weekend my Uncle Jerry and Aunt Deidra are coming down to visit. We are going to go to the zoo on Friday. Even if they have to push me around in a stroller, I am going to go to the zoo! Then Saturday is Caroline’s 19th birthday! We are going to PF Changs to celebrate that evening. It should be a fun weekend! I go back to my oncologist next week. Please pray that everything goes well and that I get all the answers I need for this upcoming chapter in my life. I will also be having another lung function test sometime in August that I am getting nervous about as well. However, I know God has a plan and He will see me through whatever the outcome may be. Thanks again for all the support and prayers. I will try not to wait as long to update again!