Monthly Archives: June 2012

Happy 50th Mom!

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Yesterday was my beautiful mother’s 50th birthday! I’m sure many of you are surprised that she is 50 years old because she doesn’t look 50 at all! I can only hope and pray that I look as good as she does at 50! Oh, and that she doesn’t kill me for letting the whole world know that she is 50! 🙂 We have been celebrating her birthday since last Friday when her twin sister and friends arrived from Missouri. They had a fun-filled weekend of shopping, eating sweets, and reminiscing! Yesterday on her actual birthday, we went out to the golf course in the morning, laid by the pool in the afternoon, and then Dad and Caroline took her shopping and out to dinner in OKC. The celebrating isn’t over yet! Her wonderful co-workers decorated her office and made her a cake today and then we are having dinner with the neighbors for her birthday next week. She deserves every single bit of it because she is the greatest mom that anyone could ask for! She is not only my mom but my best friend as well! 🙂 Here’s to 50 more years, mom!

It’s hard to believe that I only have a little over a week left until my last chemotherapy treatment. I had a full list of questions for my doctor last round. Some of the answers I received include that I can’t eat raw fruits and veggies until August, I have to stay on antibiotics for another month, and may not be able to get my port out until September after my next PET scan. One major plus from my last chemo is that I didn’t get sick!! We noticed in my doctor’s appt that for some strange reason I hadn’t been getting one of my anti-nausea medications in my IV before chemo since February. Well that is fixed now and seemed to help a great deal! I still haven’t had much energy and have to be careful being out in the heat but other than that I’m doing pretty well.

Nanny and I went to pick peaches this morning with our wonderful neighbor Terry! Although I couldn’t actually pick them myself, I supervised and we got a lot of good peaches! Nanny is actually peeling them all right now so we can freeze them and have some wonderful treats later! I’m so excited! I have been trying to do as much as possible with Nanny since she will be going home soon. I don’t know how I’m going to let her go! 😦 I told her last night that she could only go home if she promised to come back soon!

I don’t think we have much planned for the rest of the week and the weekend. I am looking forward to spending some time with Will and his daughter Ashlei on my “good” weekend before my last round of chemo! My last chemo is July 5 so at least I will get to enjoy the 4th with friends and family! God is so good! Last night, Nanny and I watched the movie “Soul Surfer.” If you haven’t seen it, you should definitely go rent it! I had already seen the movie once before but could relate much more now than I did then. The young girl in the movie loses her arm and starts questioning how this could be part of God’s plan for her life. Well one thing the movie does a good job of is showing that God has a plan for all of us, even if that plan is sometimes hard to understand. He allows us to go through things so that we and others may draw closer to Him. I love that I can always count on Him and I know my life will be a lot better because of this trial. Thanks for all your prayers! ONE MORE!!

Faith

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My Beth Moore bible study this week was called “Keep Believin’.” It started out talking about faith that abounds and gave the scripture Psalm 145:13 which states “The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made.” This means a lot to me because He has been faithful to me through all of this and I know He will be faithful to me after this as well. He has definitely taught me that I have to trust Him through all aspects of my life because He is the only one in control. While at times, I tend to worry about what is ahead of me in my life, I have to trust that He already knows and it will be perfect.

The next part of the study talked about all the people in the bible that were 100% faithful to God. A lot of them I was already familiar with such as Enoch, Abel, Noah, Moses, and Abraham. The faith they possessed was incredible. The study talked about how it is important to base our faith on who God is and not what He has or hasn’t done for us. It states how faith comes from listening to Him and being involved in His word.

The fourth day’s lesson was called “Fight the Good Fight.” I really loved this lesson because it talked about how Jesus could do few miracles in His own town because of the people’s lack of faith. It taught how Satan uses fear and familiarity against us. Before I had cancer, I always thought it was hard for me to witness to others because my story wasn’t very unique. I have been a Christian since I was 7, grew up in church, and was familiar with all the common bible studies. Satan used that against me and made me timid in sharing God’s word. Satan also uses our fear against us because we often times don’t witness to others in fear of rejection.

The last day of this study was about how Christ has promised us of His return. If we only believe in Him, then He will take us with Him to the place which He has prepared for us. How awesome is that?! I have known this since I was little but was unsure of where the scriptural reference was until now. If you are like me and don’t know where to find this, check it out in 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18. The most amazing part of it all is that we just have to believe in Him. It doesn’t matter what our past looks like or if we have had moments of disbelief, He will still remain faithful to us. I don’t know about you, but I can’t wait for that day!

I hope you enjoyed learning about God’s faithfulness as much as I did. He has been oh so good to me and I just couldn’t not share this wonderful message with you. This week I found another girl my age who is battling cancer in Colorado. She is the sister of a friend of mine from college. I am planning on writing her an email soon because her blog has been so encouraging to me and I didn’t even know she existed until this week. Just another example of how awesome God is! 🙂

This past weekend we celebrated Father’s Day. On Saturday, Will’s family had a cookout at his parent’s house and it was a fun afternoon full of food, water games, and laughter. Sunday, my family went to OKC to play golf, eat lunch, and do a little shopping to celebrate our wonderful dad! That evening, we had dinner with our wonderful neighbors the Varnell’s! I have the greatest dad in the world! I hope everyone else had a wonderful father’s day weekend as well!

Tomorrow is my second to last round of chemotherapy. While I am really dreading being ill again, I am also very ready to be down to only 1 left. I have written down several questions to ask the doctor so lets hope I don’t overwhelm him. It’s crazy to think that it’s almost over. Just two weeks left! Thanks for all your support and continued prayers. I am really looking forward to the end of all of this and now that is very near! 🙂

25 Years Old

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I’m pretty sure that after people turn 21, they don’t usually tell people outright how old they are. Well I am proud to say that I turned 25 years old yesterday! I am so thankful for those 25 years that God has blessed me with and I will tell anyone who wants to know how old I am. I am thankful that I am still alive and cancer-free! God obviously had bigger plans for me and I’m thankful for each year he gives me! I pray that he uses me in ways I never could have imagined.

As you know, I had chemo last week and am now down to just two left. My blood counts are still really low, I got sick again that evening, and I don’t remember much about the actual day of chemo, so nothing new. 🙂 It still seems to be taking longer to recover each time but the doctor said that is pretty typical since you are just adding more chemo drugs to your body each time. I think I can make it through two more!

I had a great birthday weekend! On Friday evening, I had dinner with my family and then Will and I made a pallet in the living room floor and watched a movie! That is one of my favorite things to do and worked out well since I still wasn’t feeling too hot! Saturday, Will took me shopping for my birthday, I sat by the pool with my friend Emily, grilled out with Will, and then had ice cream with Emily! Sunday, on my actual birthday, my family and I watched church online, went out to Boomer lake to get a little exercise, laid by the pool, and then had dinner along with Will’s family at the neighbor’s house! It was a wonderful weekend and I couldn’t have asked for any better! I have such wonderful friends and family and am so thankful for each one of them!

We don’t really have much planned for this week besides cheering on the Thunder!! If you aren’t aware of who I am talking about, Oklahoma City has a fairly new NBA team called the OKC Thunder and they made it to the NBA Finals this year! We are big fans and you could be sure that I would be going to some games if I was allowed to be around that many people! My parents and Will are getting to go to some games but Nanny and I will just cheer them on from home!

While doing my Beth Moore bible study this week, I read a scripture from 2 Corinthians 12 which talked about Paul pleading with God to remove a thorn in his side. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” This verse spoke to me because the end of this journey is getting to be very long and trying. I have to remember that God’s grace is enough to get me through and His power is made perfect in my weakness. I know that with Him, I can endure. Thank you so much for your prayers! Just two more to go!

One Month From Today

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A lot has been going on since I last wrote a post. This past weekend we headed to Kansas City for my cousin Courtney’s wedding and had so much fun! Courtney was a beautiful bride and it was so great to be able to be there with her and share those special memories with her. The wedding turned out perfectly and it was so much fun seeing all my old friends from high school as well! I seriously have the best friends a girl could possibly ask for. I think I hold all my friendships a little more dearly to my heart after going through something like this and I can’t imagine life without them.

We got back to town on Sunday in time to go to our neighbor Terry’s surprise retirement party! Our neighbor’s are like our family and are so special to us. Their twin daughters were in town for the party and it was so nice to be able to see them and visit with them for a little while. Terry was such a wonderful teacher for many years but I am so excited that she is now retired and gets to relax a little! She is always doing something for someone else so it was good that we were able to celebrate her and show her how great she is!

Today is Nanny’s birthday! We are having a great day celebrating Nanny today. As you already know, I am so thankful for her in my life and can’t imagine what it would be like without her here during this time. I took a walk with her this morning, we went to lunch with Will and his parents, Caroline and I took her shopping this afternoon, and tonight my family is taking her out to eat in Oklahoma City! All in all, I think she has had a wonderful day! I am so glad she is down here with us so we can show her just how special she is to us!

As you can see, we have been pretty busy the past several days. Luckily, I have felt pretty good and have been able to enjoy all the celebrations! Tomorrow, I go back for another round of chemotherapy. Although I really dread those days, I am glad that after tomorrow I just have two more left. The first thing Nanny said to me this morning was “exactly one month from today and you will be finished.” That is so very exciting to me! I absolutely cannot wait to be finished with all of this!

While I am more than ready for this to be over, I am so thankful for all that God has taught me through all of this. I have learned more than anything to not sweat the small stuff. God is in control of every little thing in our lives so we might as well not worry about it and turn it all over to Him. I am reading a book right now called “The Great Eight.” It’s written by a World Champion figure skater who had testicular cancer and then a brain tumor which destroyed his pituitary gland. I have only begun to read it but it’s already so inspiring because he talks about how even after going through something so life changing, he is so much happier now than he was before he went through all of it. I have only gotten through his first key to happiness but it was always trusting your “Almighty Coach.” He refers to God as the Almighty Coach and he couldn’t be more right! God has definitely been my coach through all of this and I don’t know what I would do without my faith in Him. Thanks again for your prayers and I ask that you keep them coming for ONE MORE MONTH!!