A LOT has happened since I last posted a blog! First of all, I am now down to 4 chemotherapy treatments left and that means exactly 2 months left to go! I can’t say they are getting any easier because I got just as sick last time as I ever have. However, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and even if I get sick from here on out, I will make it! My blood counts were low again during my last doctor’s visit which we aren’t really sure why they went back down but my doctor did not seem to be concerned so that’s good. Also, I have to say goodbye to the best chemo nurse ever at my next treatment because she is moving to Sacramento, CA. 😦 She has been so wonderful to me and I’m sure she will do awesome things in her future.
As many of you know, this past weekend was a big milestone for me! I graduated with my doctorate degree in Physical Therapy. We had an honor and awards banquet on Friday night where I received an “Excellence in Research” award which was totally unexpected. Then we had graduation on Saturday morning. It was very tiring since my chemo was still pretty recent but I made it! That night we had family and friends over for dinner on the deck to celebrate and it was such a fun evening. I want to say thank you to everyone who has supported me these past 7 years of school. I can’t believe it’s finally over. It was kind of bittersweet this weekend because I have been waiting to be done with school for so long now but at the same time I will miss my classmates who I spent almost every day with for the past 3 years. I wish them all the best of luck in their future careers.
I think God has been trying to teach me lately that beauty is not skin deep. As you already know, I lost my hair several months ago now. Well, my eyelashes and eyebrows have been slowly falling out as well. I use a gel everyday that is supposed to help them grow back in as soon as they fall out but some of it is inevitable. I asked my mom to get me fake eyelashes to wear to graduation this past weekend. I wore them Friday night to the honor and awards banquet and my eyes burned so badly all night from the glue that you would have thought I was crying. I decided it wasn’t worth it to wear them again on Saturday. I put mascara on the few lashes I have left and was good to go! I have truly learned that outer beauty is nothing compared to what is within.
I heard a song on the radio the other day called “Come as you are” by Pocket Full of Rocks. It really spoke to me because it talks about how God doesn’t care about your scars or what you have been through. He just wants us to come to Him, just as we are. He doesn’t care what we look like, He just wants to see our heart. If you haven’t heard this song you should listen to it on youtube, it’s awesome! God has been so good to me! I heard this weekend that a friend of a friend of mine had passed away. While it saddened me for all his friends and family, it also made me envious of him that he is now with our heavenly father. This man lived life 100% for God and I have no doubt in my mind that Jesus welcomed him by saying “well done my good and faithful servant.” His life gives me and hopefully others motivation to live life the same way.
Caroline is now home for the summer and while she probably doesn’t like us asking her what she is doing all the time, I couldn’t be happier to have her here! She lightens the mood just being in her presence. She was such big help this past weekend and I am so thankful for her! We have been hanging out with Nanny, watching Ellen everyday at 4, and taking walks when we have the time 🙂 Luckily, there have been a lot of good movies out lately too so if you need any suggestions on which ones to watch, just ask!
Although this week is not my week for chemo, it is still a very big week for me! I have a PET scan tomorrow and then a heart and lung function test on Thursday. The PET scan is to check again to see if the cancer is gone and the heart and lung tests are to make sure the chemo is not harming my heart or lungs. Please pray that both of these tests bring good results. I know that God is in control and whatever the outcome may be, He will bring me through. I just truly believe in the power of prayer and praying for specifics. John 16:23 says “In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.” Thank you once again for your prayers. I will be uploading many pictures very soon!