I am SO very sorry that it has been two weeks now since my last post. This was not my intention whatsoever. However, life has been eventful for me since I last posted. I will try to give you the short version of what has been going on in my life since I last wrote. My last chemo treatment was not so great. My blood counts are still at the same low and before the nurse even started giving me any drugs, I started gagging. 😦 While I didn’t get sick during the treatment, I did get sick again right after it was over. I came home and slept most of the evening and Thursday seemed to be a better day.
Friday night I woke up in the middle of the night (3 am) to the sound of the tornado sirens going off. I quickly woke up my mom who woke up the rest of the family and we headed to the neighbors to take shelter. Saturday, Nanny and I played games with Will’s daughter Ashlei in the afternoon and then my whole family went to watch my sister perform in OSU’s “Spring Sing” on Saturday evening which is a show put on by the fraternities and sororities at OSU. Unfortunately, I was not able to go due to the many people that attend this event. While they were gone, I hung out at Will’s with the rest of his family who was preparing for the huge storms we were expecting to get that evening. Luckily, Stillwater was not hit that night but a small town called Woodward was hit hard. We are still praying for them as they rebuild their homes, businesses, and grieve over the loss of their possessions and some loved ones. Sunday, I “helped” Will and Ash clean out their attic. By saying “helped,” I mean that I sat and kept them company while they did the work. 🙂 Nanny went home for the week on Sunday and that was hard to let her go, even though its only a week.
On Monday, I had lunch with a friend and then ran some errands with Will’s mom Jennie that afternoon. My parents were both starting to get colds on Monday so I hung out at Will’s parents that night to try to avoid getting sick. However, my immune system is so low that it was almost unavoidable. I woke up Tuesday morning at 5:30am with a sore throat. 😦 I was supposed to go to school that day but instead I spent most of the day trying to get ahold of my oncologist, who was out of town, to try and see if I could take some medicine to get over this. I didn’t have school Wednesday so I used that day to try and recover. Thursday I still wasn’t feeling well but had been on antibiotics for over 24 hours so I wasn’t contagious. I went to school and it was good to see my classmates whom I hadn’t seen since January before all of this began. Friday I started feeling a little better but was still pretty worn out from going to school all day the day before. We had class again Friday and also took graduation pictures. I spent the evening at Will’s parents for a nice family dinner.
This past weekend, we were supposed to go back to Missouri for a shower for my cousin who is getting married in June. However, my mom and I still were not feeling well enough to travel. Although I was very disappointed that I wasn’t able to see family and friends from back home this weekend, I also did not want to over-do it and end up in the hospital due to getting even more sick. Instead, I decided to find out just how sensitive I am to the sun. I sat and watched Ashlei’s soccer game on Saturday afternoon and was only out there for an hour. I didn’t think it would be a problem but I got really burnt. 😦 Guess I will know to take an umbrella next time. I also dropped by my friend Emily’s tea party and had some wonderful desserts. Sunday was a pretty lazy day. Will and I went to church and then just hung out for most of the day. Nanny came back yesterday evening and I’m really glad to have her back!!
Okay I think you are all caught up now. As you can see, my last couple weeks have been very eventful and I encountered some things that were definitely unexpected. However, I made it through and learned a few lessons. 🙂 This week is going to be very busy as well. Nanny is getting back to her cleaning routine and we have several errands to run this afternoon. Tomorrow I have to go back to school for the day to watch my class give presentations. Then Wednesday is my 7th round of chemo. We are on the downhill slide! Please pray that this time goes better than last and hopefully my blood counts will be higher this time as well.
My devotion that I read last night was called “Learning the Art of Acceptance.” The scripture it referenced was Job 2:10 which states “Should we accept only good from God and not adversity?” It talked about how we always want to be in control of our lives and it is hard when God throws us a curveball that was not in “our plan.” I am one of the world’s worst at planning my life and future without seeking God’s will. I think God gives us these curveballs to let us know that He is in control and ultimately He will have the final word. This devotion also quoted Reinhold Niebuhr’s Serenity Prayer which states “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” I love this! After 3 months, I can honestly say that I have accepted my condition and even my bald head 🙂 I now just pray that God will give me the courage to change the things that He wants me to change and the wisdom to know the difference!
Thanks once again for the prayers! I will try to do better at writing blog posts more often. It’s hard to believe that my graduation is in a little over two weeks. While I have waited for this day for 7 years now, its almost bittersweet that its finally here. However, I can’t wait for summer and hope that I am able to sit by the pool soon, even if that means sitting in the shade! 🙂 I am praying for each and every one of you who is going through a difficult time right now. May you seek God during this time and draw closer to Him more than you ever have. God bless!