I had some family and friends that participated in a race this weekend called the Run Lucky 5K in OKC where all proceeds went to Lymphoma/Leukemia research. Although I did not participate, I cheered them on from the start line and then the finish line. Normally I get tired after just standing for a short period of time, but there was so much adrenaline that I stood for over an hour! It was so much fun! I have already told several people that I hope that I am able to train for this and run in it next year. Mark your calendars for next March if you want to join me! 🙂 Look forward to pictures coming in my photo gallery from the race!
Even though I didn’t run the race on Sunday, the whole day I kept thinking about how I am running my own race. I am referring to Hebrews 12:1-3 which states “Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lost heart.” Although my race seems rather long right now, it will soon end and I too will have overcome the obstacle that was set before me.
This past weekend, we also had some family come down from Missouri. My uncle, his wife, my cousin, and his wife were all here to spend some time with us. We had a lot of fun! We didn’t do a lot but we were able to get out and enjoy some ice cream and play a game which had us all laughing! Did I mention that my Nanny is back?! I am so glad to have her back to be with me during the days! Yesterday was a lot of fun as well. Nanny and I went to lunch with Will and his mom, then Emily and I went for a walk and I walked a whole mile :), then we got snow cones which were really good, then I had a great dinner with my family, and finally I watched the season finale of “The Bachelor” with Will’s mom Jennie! It was a very busy but fun day and luckily I felt pretty good!
Tomorrow is my fourth chemotherapy session and I am very much dreading it! I am going to try to take my nausea medicine before I even enter the room tomorrow and hope that helps but I’m not very optimistic about it. I continue to pray every day for God to give me the strength to endure this long journey. I wouldn’t be able to do it without my faith in Him and I am a walking testimony that He answers prayers.
I was reading in one of my devotion books the other day and the title was “Gratitude: For the Bad.” The scripture that went along with the devotion was Genesis 50:20 which states “As far as I am concerned, God turned into good what you meant for evil.” To me, this scripture means that Satan wanted this whole situation to be bad, but our great and wonderful God can take “bad” situations and turn them into good. As I was talking to a fellow Hodgkins Lymphoma survivor the other day, she reassured me that although this situation doesn’t seem good right now, that I will look back on it someday and be thankful for the experiences it gave me. My devotion was saying just that. It stated that when life throws you a curveball, you should catch it and then thank God for sending it your way.
I am already very thankful for all the blessings I have been given through all of this. As I previously stated, I am still running the race that God has set before me and my endurance seems to grow through all of you that have shown me Christ’s love. Once again I appreciate the prayers and would ask that you keep them coming for the days ahead. I will more than likely have another PET scan in the next couple of weeks to see if the cancer is gone. I am very anxious about this day but also know that God is in complete control. Elisabeth Elliot was quoted saying “When terrible things happen, there are two choices, and only two: We can trust God, or we can defy him. We believe that God is God, He’s still got the whole world in His hands and knows exactly what He’s doing, or we must believe that He is not God and that we are at the awful mercy of mere chance.” I will choose to believe that He knows exactly what He is doing 🙂